Not so arcane things

 Not a very long post today Much going on in life offline to be writing lengthy posts at the moment. However, I think I may be closer to understanding on of the many facets about being an adult. The fun part is- the way I see it now, it is true! No one in their right minds has their lives figured out. We all make it up as we go along...!? 😛 So far, my most and least favourite part about this the fact that 3 things ring truer than anything else- 1. With great power, comes great responsibility. 2. You are the choices you make. 3. You live with the consequence of each choice you make, no escaping there! More later... work calling! Take care and be kind! 

       2022, the year one finally dares breathe in a sliver of hope. As the disease-ridden world was slowly but surely trying to get back on its feet- the pandemic situation was finally abating. To say the threat of impending world war was not something any living human needed at this point- is a freaking understatement! I am sure you will agree with me on that one.             I was at work when I first heard the news of the Russian invasion of Ukraine. Now to be clear, I am not from either countries and can’t even being to imagine how the natives or people with loved ones there are feeling right now. However, the idea of war has always left me a little broken, frustrated and very confused. The logic of war and power are completely lost to my mystic soul. Back to the moment at work when I first heard of the attack- I felt my soul sustain a whiplash. The world has seen so much death and loss due to the pandemic...

 This post is about the one fateful day, I saw an advert for a RomCom on a YouTube video and on this rare occasion- I immediately switched to the movie and saved the video for later. I won’t lie, my first impulse to watch the movie was Austin Stowell’s face, I am also not sorry that I watched The Hating Game ! Now that I have read the book on which the movie is based- I understand a lot of things that I thought remained unexplained/ out of place in the movie. Yes, I ended up liking the story of the movie that much! To be honest I am like this with different things that I like about a movie, cartoon, video game, author, actor… you name it!   Now, I will try my best to give out spoilers, but I guess it will fail at that anyway. So, consider this as a Spoiler alert warning for this post. On with it now… The movie or the book by itself are no Shakespearean piece, I like it for the ease with which it delves in the insecurities of both parties involved. Though most people may ca...

I am writing this in the instance of finding myself on the brink of some dangerous memories that have been reawakened in me. One of my friends lost a patient today, more specifically she lost a baby on the operation table today. Being in the healthcare profession and surrounded by friends in the medical field this is a situation that always hits very close to home.   I have lost patients in the past, patients under my care, patients we tried to resuscitate for hours before we gave up. Going through med-school really does change you in many ways and definitely adds a sliver of maturity to most students if not all. However, nothing, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING prepares you for death- the loss of someone in your care. One doesn't realise when it happens but through our years in med school- we end up believing or at least hoping that no one dies under our watch. We start to think that as long as we are meticulous and dedicated enough that we can save them all. I don’t want to get into ...

 You know there's people who are stressed all the time!? The people who live in their heads so much with their anxiety- that it often ruins their reality? That person is me. I am not proud of the fact but sadly I do relate to it. That is probably why I suffer through most of the days of my (so apparently!) blessed life. I have been this anxious person for so long that I have probably become comfortable in this way of life. Until a few months ago, I was seemingly unaware of my masochistic delight at my own suffering. I had become so so so hardwired to be stressed all the time, to have anxiety attacks in the broad daylight. You know the works... So, here's the thing, I was stressed at my workplace as usual. Always freaking out, wondering if I am enough. Making things difficult for myself. This with difficult people to deal with didn't make things easy for me. It's been 6 months at my said workplace that I learned an important lesson today- it wasn't the person that wa...

I always looked at some people and thought- "...look at that Ace, seems to have his/ her lives all figured out!" However, off late I feel like I may be finally growing up and letting the glasses of my naivety fall off. I honestly do not believe anyone has their lives figured out. I mean if you do, kudos to you! Life just keeps shuffling. I feel like every time I convince myself I have managed to have a good footing, everything moves again. Does everyone feel this? Am I the only one? I have no idea anymore. I will admit this though- some have better proprioception for life-quakes than I do. I always seem to land flat on my arse every time my life changes! (Note to self: You really need to stop doing that! Start working on some proprioception training for Pete's sake! 😂)  It makes me wonder how people navigate through life stumbling less than I do? Where does one learn the rights and wrongs of proprioception training for the soul? Definitely not the kind of questions one m...